I was back

Back to mah old life, new place and faces…

Sometimes it’s hard showing everybody how independent you’ve become.. people you know of have a tendency of well, leaving you really alone and make you do things on your own…and it’s even harder knowing all your friends have left the country to go overseas for jobs.. how the government and politics’ disease remains and I think it’s even spreading wider.. and wider.. contagious.. nationwide..

I’ve never felt so alone and in need of a lot or a little rally round than ever!

I’m not suppose to be here yet. But with the help of an officemate (thanks po!), I was able to get this place. Fast. I mean, the day I got back, this place’s considered m-i-n-e. At least for the time being. Anyways…

About me now is THANKFUL to:-my MAL colleagues, for all you’ve done for me. You all know what I’m thankful of. Big or small favors that is. No special mentions of names though. Especially to my ## kgs excess baby phat baggage… whew!-the crews of MAS for waiting for me! Maybe next time you should remind the passengers that they’d be taking train to the boarding area..(wink!)-the guy at the airport. Dunno the name or anything though he’s not local. Man, you’re a big help. And sorry for the trouble my 2 big boxes (25kgs. each) + 2 luggage (20 + 15kgs) have caused you. Can’t put down my World Tour guitar and Lego Batman. (giggles)-the staff of Festival Mall for helping me with my 10 bags without asking for any money or tip. True pinoy gentleman! Yay!-my father for the fish, veggies and barbecue. D-e-l-i-c-i-o-u-s!!! 2 thumbs up! And for knowing that I’m using him to bring back my stuffs again with no complains. Hehehe…-my mader.. for spending time packing my things. Next time please add a little more that can fit. Necessities.-my aunts for always, always, and always being there. with or without pasalubong and duty free shopping.

About me now is TIRED:i haven’t had a longer and good night sleep since 01Mar.it’s 2352H and I’m typing.. my mind is in non-stop mode thinking about things.

About me now is SORRY:for the bad and wrong and disappointing things I’ve said and done. help me name a few…. i do no right. i just write.

About me now is GLAD:i was able to spend a little time with some people i very seldom see and be with. miles away.. who knows when are we gonna see each other again. i hope soon….
About me now is PISSED:bleh. it’s accidental as you may all say. who believed the excuse of “site problems”? yeah, right… it’s not a God-Game people and you’re talking about 2000 heads. I’ll do you a favor by cutting myself out. make it 1999.

About me now is SAD:none of my business since I haven’t been here, I wasn’t there. I’m not God to know what really happened but things are getting sadder and longer. it hurts to know people you care about are hurting. how time flies so fast… who forgives, forgets, regrets. what we all want is JUSTICE. who speaks the truth and all. it’s not fair hearing only one side of the story. what if the same thing happens to you? what if it’s too late to reconcile? so many questions but the answers are so few..

we should all know our responsibilites and act like one. i pray for both parties. Justice will prevail. God will guide & give us all the answer. I pray we all make ourselves prepared and accept the outcome whatever it is. Somehow, there is a reason why. there is a purpose. And He’s the only one who knew..

to the kids most especially, it’s never easy. it never will. tough luck to the journey called life! i miss seeing you all together like the good old times. you’re so many and little but it’s fun. please don’t let anyone, anything or ANYBODY cloud your mind. they can all say and tell whatever stories they want, can advise you however they want but THE CHOICE IS ALWAYS YOURS.

Life is too short to fill you heart with fear, with anger, with hate and later on suffer… keep moving forward…

I’m just here.