2 x 8 = 28

After a month of pure heat, rain started pouring consecutively since two to three weeks ago. From time to time, it scares the heck out of me.Made me think something’s up. Hurdles? A change of season? Someone’s walking out of my life again? Well, tough luck friend!


And as I saunter alone (in the boulevard of broken dreams), I remember posting last year the last 26 (or less) birthday celebrations I had (see recent events). Now, to make this year’s recap works, I find myself what my life has been for the past 27 years as I can remember. Be my guest and read on…

1 –4 years old: ask my parents. 1985

5: My childhood sweetheart named Joel came into view. I became Bioman’s Pink 5. And everything’s Pink. See? I do have a childhood sweetheart. I do! 1986

6: My maternal sent me to Grade 1 without Kindergarten. Good thing I passed all the writing, reading & drawing exams.1987

7: I was transferred from section 1 to section 2. Does that mean I got dumber? There were 8 sections having 1 as the highest with at least 50 kids each. 1988

8: Grade 2. My first ever love letter. “basta crush kita. Pero hindi naman crush na crush na crush!” Haha! (it was crash) 1989

9: 3rd Grade. From section 2 to 3. I got dumber to dumbest? My classmates were all good at any Chinese garter games. Even boys I think. I can only finish up to the armpit’s level with the help of a hand. Can’t even tumbling. At this age, I wanna be a doctor when I grow up. 1990

10: One of the boys from the class touched my thigh. I slapped him and never told anybody about it but now. His name was George. 1991

11: First ever dance experience for Xmas party presentation. My considered best bud became distant to me for a reason I never knew. My doctor of medicine dream went to wanting to be a nurse someday. Someone asked me if he can court me and I was like “what is that?” The child in me. J 1992

Graduated Elementary/Primary School

12: With my average and exam results, I made it to Section 10. What’s next to dumbest? This time having 56 sections, 1 being the highest with at least 50-60 students each. My mom was my Filipino teacher. Beat that. 1993

13: From section 10 to 9. Not even close to getting smarter. Geez! Long days & pleasant nights. Bloody year. I swore not to ever, never, wear bra til I grow old and had white hairs. My desire to be an engineer has risen. My class section presented a Monday dance number titled: Lead Me Lord.. I was wearing tight tights. (Monday presentation was always held at the Grand Stand with all students & teachers, sometimes even visitors) 1994

14: Chicken pox season. From section 9 to 6. I had a huge crush with someone. And yeah, I ate what I said and eventually started to wear bra even if it itches and was never been comfortable to wear. 1995

15: My huge crush was still there (which by the way makes me laugh as I write this & remember those old days). 1996

Graduated Secondary School

16: I failed MIT’s entrance exams and passed UST’s but I was so disheartened (it was my first failure) that I missed the last day of UST’s enrolment so I went to Sacred Heart College to my dismay (I never wanted to get my college degree in the province) and thought of taking B.S. Mathematics. I ended up taking exams at Lycevm of the Philippines, Manila. Well, at least I get MIT as neighbor. 1997

17: Good thing there’s never been sections in college. Blocked, yes. But never will the genius & the notso genius will be alienated. I joined PAMANA Party, eventually won the Engineering election and elected as 2nd Representative of Engineering Council. Is it? Before finishing this year, we had a Departmental Exams, I passed & stayed (& wasn’t kicked out of school had I failed). 1998

18: Major subjects happened this year. I started to realize how broad my major is. Electronics isn’t just the old Electronics. It was new and improved - digitally. Communication’s scope is far extensive than Electronics because it is under Communications that we have to study: 1. Telephony, 2. Satellite Communications, 3. Etc. and we basically have 4-5 months to finish 1 course? That’s aside from Math subjects and laws. I joined IECEP and was elected as 3rd year rep? I can’t remember anymore. I also have a position back at the Engineering Council. I was addicted to MiRC. 1999

19. Engineering Council’s Treasurer and what was my position in IECEP this year? It’s a buuussssyyy year. Organizations + studies + friends ++. Haha! Worst part was my maternal & paternal can no longer sustain my education so I applied at KFC as a crew and passed. Before the school year & my supposed to be job started, I was a scholar. A study now, pay later type. J 2000

20. Goodbye teen, hello 20! Finally done with OJT on summer of 2001, somewhere the month of July, I became the President of IECEP – Lycevm Chapter for the year 2001-2002, whether most of the organization’s body like it or not. This is another story yet to tell. Damn, this was maybe the busiest & restless year of my entire life. I was basically enjoying the perks of my organization, travelling, studying, in love, partying, socializing, making lots of friends & foes, explaining myself to everybody, etc. etc. etc.

People loved and hated me just the same this year. My parents weren’t an exception because apparently, I wasn’t allowed to have a boyfriend til I finish college. Why is it that I wasn’t born in a much liberated and open country? Why?

Without flying colours, I finished my engineering degree in 5 years time. No more, no less. What more can my parents ask for? Yeah, of course, me finding a job & not marrying early til I’m settled. Because it is a failure for parents to have a child finished her college and be jobless. 2001

21. I failed my engineering licensure exam. 6 points away to passing. And I never took another after. I’ve got myself to blame and no one else. I was laid back, attending review classes but not reviewing & not putting my heart into it. J Guess, I wanted nothing but a job and be independent. 2002

My grandmother asked me when am I getting married. Creepy.

22. I left the country and worked abroad. A certified OFW, I have become. Another new chapter of my borrowed life. Away from my parents. You wanted to see and be with them but all you can do is call. Gotta pay my scholarship anyway. Better start now. 2003

23. I started gaining weight. The traveler in me still travels, the student in me still study, this time about culture and their basic language, we’re still together though we’re apart. Hehe. New friends, same single life. 2004

24. After 2 years abroad, I was home again. 2005

25. We’re still friends though no longer together and still apart. Hehe. A sinner and a saint, I did something out of the 10 Commandments. Nanay passed away. I still feel sad with the thought of it.2006

26. Seeing friends, trying to: make a living, be a good daughter, friend, enjoy & live life. 2007

27. Overseas again. 2008

28. Home again. 2009

I sound boring with the last 5 years. Go read recent events coz it was these years that I started taking pictures, blogging & making web pages.

Did you count how many times I wrote the word “fail” regardless of failed or failure or just fail? If yes, how many are they?

My 28th birthday, it will be. And I’m still a child. At least to parents, I will always be.

Later.